sweeps won't work anymore

Today was awesome.

It felt like I was on fire. In my head, even before I started training, I had already won.

Somehow I just had this visualization of doing that kick in my head, even without giving it much thought. As I executed it, somehow my body knew exactly what to do, when to do, and how to do it. Coulden't believe it myself too.

Taking a step forward, launching into an aerial spin, extending my back leg, and just swinging my arms as I caught air, time seemed to slow down. In the final moments of the jump, the swing reached full velocity, and my extended shin hit the bag in a huge "THUD!".

As I landed, I coulden't believe it. All thats left now is to reduce the 'wind-up' time to launch.

Had fun throwing and grappling various 'victims' today, but the highlight has got to be that 540 flying shin kick.
Well I could not catch a midair pic, so here's a standard one.

the seeds are sown

never again shall emptiness rain from my eyes.












for I've risen, beyond falling, to deliver the prophecy that is your undoing.
there will be him, strength supreme. unparalleled and unchallenged.

Sum of events

So much has happened in so little time. I've gained a few friends, I've lost some. Things are pushing and pulling like crazy now, but my friends are helping me along bit by bit. I've never been the sort to rely on others, but strangely with their help I seem to be doing just fine.

I sometimes don't know what to feel, maybe I've never really moved on, but the next moment I believe in something else.
I just hope after all we've been through, that I'm not forgotten, and my memories are still held dear.
Otherwise it would just be a shame to let it all go to waste, for every bit of my actions were sincere.

I'm in a precarious situation now.

Dad's ill
Biomedical science is borderline
Musical projects on hold
Singapore Marathon soon
Competition soon
Lost someone special
Lost my grip on everything

Yet through these trying times, you guys have been with me, dragging me along when I've clearly given up, always pushing me ahead. Money can buy anything these days, but not these peers definitely.

But right now, I'm facing a big challenge, one that will upset the balance of my life, possibly destabilizing it permanently, but ultimately yielding brighter days and better fruits of my labor.

I just hope at the end of it all, you'd be there waiting.

Never let your memories of me disappear...

Where did we come from,
Why all here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?

Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Life is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,

Or could this be all that we've got?

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone

The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend


I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why..
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try


If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on


"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear"


Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again

She's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I'm here
It's perfectly clear

I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

someday.

someday... we're gonna rise up on that wind, you know
someday... we're dance with those lions...
someday... we gonna break free from these chains,
and keep on, keep on, keep on flying.... yeah.

19/11/08 - a dream come true

Today passed by rather quickly, albeit being a long day on its own. Partly due to the anticipation, and mostly due to fatigue and being off-form.

Had class... late as usual. This is getting on my nerves, I don't have enough rest and I stay so far away from school. To you guys who live closer than me, don't be late yeah... or you'll look bad.

To think I dreamed of this once, and today it all came true.

That said, a few questions lingered in my head as I headed home in the train.

Would you like a hot, sexy girlfriend who treats you like shit?
or
Would you like a average, yet pleasant looking girlfriend, who makes you happy and appreciates?

hmm... I wonder.

16/11/08 - Swissotel Vertical Marathon 2008

Woke up at 6am in the morning and headed to Swissotel with Dad to collect my race pack. The race pack was really satisfying, with plenty of goodies and magazines to boot! Got changed and prepped for the race, with Dad waiting patiently. Managed to squeeze a few shots.



The Challenge...



and the challenger...



After I got all warmed up, was time to wait in line for my turn. Guess who I met in line? I bet he was all out of web today...



Although it was early in the morning the crowd was already waiting to climb and there were only 6 in a wave, released in 1 minute intervals.



Then it started.

Within minutes I was dashing up flights of endless, endless stairs, stopping every other floor to take shots of myself. I really took my time and ran like a tourist.
After what seemed like countless steps, I reached the 50th floor. Got bored so I whipped out my camera and took a "Blair Witch" style video.

I looked up the stairwell and saw a blinding light.. I kept running towards it, and it got brighter gradually... kept pushing and pushing, overtook all the runners before me and before I knew it...



the feeling was surreal, on top of Asia's tallest hotel, all on my own effort.



it was super super bright on top, and as I slowly made my way around the helipad, a friendly lady handed me a can of redbull.





everything looks tiny..



unfinished Integrated Resort





And of course, the quintessential event signboard...


chilled on the roof awhile (actually it was burning hot) yeah. Then made my way down. Passed through my old working place, Equinox, the restaurant at the 69th floor of Swissotel. To book a table here would already cost an arm. Excluding the food and service, but the view was incredible.





also spotted the New Asia Bar ... all the upper class joints.


Went down to meet Dad, and later met Diana.
For some reason she was awfully quiet and in some sort of rush. Don't really care anymore its like I don't matter to her. Not that I mind...

The rest of the day was spent with JS and Prata, and playing RA3 :)

What a day...

and the water washes it all away...

I don't know what to say anymore,
hard being together,
hard to leave,

being together would yield tears,
yet to part ways would too.

living with you seems to be the only fate.

but the memory of your love for me is now dead, isn't it?

still hurts

Walking down this deserted path of memories,
surrounding stars,
lost and all alone...
he tries to find his way.

With each step,
the ghost of his past,
the demons of the present...
haunts him so relentlessly

he runs the road of long lost years,
the bitter taste of wasted tears,
in search of what might've been,
what is unforseen?

The answers shrouded in the mist,
of time now distant and obscure,
looking there at last...
dead in my mind, this dreadful overture...

Chorus

Searching my soul,
as I'm facing the storm,
Emptiness rained from my eyes...

Cold and alone,
just one more tear,
forever lost in the wind,
he turns to darkness again.

Final Chorus

Tears in my eyes...
as I look to the sky
searching for traces of you.....

Silent ensued,
this sorrowful tale,
forever lost in the wind...
We turn to darkness again.

cold

so much has happened, since that day. So much.

All the tears that fell when you said you coulden't love me.
All the heartache I felt when you said those words to me..
All the pain and loss surrounding me.
All these feelings I have for you now void.
as the rained poured unrelentingly, drenching me in sorrow's embrace.

this meaningless crusade, this godless endeavor.

I'm sick of being a loser. Always the one losing when everyone else wins.

Why do these feelings keep coming... always this lonely love?

Stop doing this to me...

i hate you.